Thursday, October 7, 2010

Deep Breaths...

There are bad people in this world.  There are also unfortunate people.  Everyone has their own problems and I understand that.  I once read a quote that said something to the effect of 'don't judge me until you've walked in my shoes' and it's a very true statement- none of us has any idea what is going on in anyone else's life/mind/world.  But when those people's problems start to REALLY effect me, that's when I have a hard time being sympathetic or empathetic.

Our current situation involves some big mistakes that we made.  I will not place the blame on anyone but us, to be honest.  We were eager to rent out our house before we left for Guatemala again, once we found out our last renter was moving out suddenly.  The good in me met our current renter and thought, "Hey, we can give her a leg up- get her and her family in a good house, a good neighborhood, a good school district..."  So we rented to someone on government assistance.  It's been bad from the get-go.  And again, there is no one to blame but ourselves.

I just don't understand how you can lie to someone's face and then take their money.  I work hard for my money- hell, I work with middle schoolers.  So why does that give you the right to take what is mine?  It doesn't?  All I tried to do was help you.  And now, I regret it.  Not only do I regret it, but I'm definitely going think twice before every trying to 'help' someone again.  Thanks a lot for that.

It's true that I don't know what she's going through.  But I do know that her lies and her stealing, essentially, from a pregnant woman trying to get ready for her own family, is between her and Jesus. 

I hope you get hemorrhoids.

Monday, October 4, 2010

This weekend...

This weekend was a good weekend!  There were a lot of reasons for the goodness of this weekend, and I shall now take just a minute to expand on those.  Bear with me.

1.  I felt the baby kick.  Umm... weird.  It feels like someone poking you, rather gently because the baby is just the size of a yellow onion, from the inside.  It was so gentle, I almost missed it and had to be really still and focus on my abdomen to make sure that I had felt it.  Surreal.  I want it to happen all the time.  I've read that sugar gets the kiddo moving and part of me just wants to eat bowls of it, just to keep feeling that feeling.  But I won't.  That's bad.  But I have spent more time lately with my hand on my tummy, resembling "those" women who walk around patting themselves all the time.  I can now see the attraction and desire.  It's really kind of cool that there is a person growing in my stomach.

2.  We went to Antigua.  I really do love that place.  It's so nice and it feels so safe.  We went with our friend Dave and his mom.  We shopped, we talked, we ate yummy food.  It was so nice to get out of the city and walk around outside.  And it didn't rain!  That was magical in itself.  (I'm not going to tell you the part about the room mix-up and the fact that we got put beside a gaggle of teenage girls who gaggled and laughed and slammed things until well after midnight, because that was not awesome.  But when you leave that part out...)

3.  Harry Potter.  I am a Harry Potter nerd, I won't lie.  In anticipation of the next movie, I started re-reading the series.  I'm almost through the 3rd book and am remembering how much I loved the books the first time.  Even at 22 they were magical.  So me and some friends decided that we would watch the movies again, one a week, until the next movie comes out, just so we're all caught up.  Man, I want to live at Hogwarts.  I wonder how one goes about getting a job there...?  Would I be considered an international teacher?

4.  Energy.  I feel like my energy is back.  And actually, better than ever.  I'm kind of restless and I find myself looking for things to do.  I'm hoping it stay sunny today- I'd like to take the dogs out to play this afternoon.  After I run to get a haircut and pick up a few things.  It's not exciting really, but for me it is.  After three months of not wanting to do anything more than sitting on the couch... errand-running is heaven!

Four things is good.  And today, like I said, is sunny.  That can make any Monday good!

P.S. I just went searching for Harry Potter pictures and the third one that came up was a naked-looking picture of Harry and Draco hugging.  Did I miss that in the books/movies?  And why?  No really, someone tell me why...