Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Before you start judging me and spreading gossip about what a horrible person I am, read on. I like gossip, but I especially like it if it comes from me. I really enjoy being in the midst of a good drama. I love to tell my side and make sure you validate what I did or said. Or at least what I told you I did or said, because, as I've mentioned, I'm not good at confrontation and rarely do or say most of what I said I did or said. Got that? I enjoy being wronged, having others rally to my defense to stand united against a real or imagined slight. I do, I love it.
But I also know when to keep my mouth shut. You might have a hard time believing that at this moment... or if you know me at all. It is the truth, however. I rarely pass along gossip that could hurt someone. I don't enjoy spreading others' pain or misery. I don't relish the idea of making someone look bad just so I can get some kicks. I don't pass along damaging information just to get a laugh. I am picky in what I choose to gossip about.
Even if it IS about me. There is so much that I could say right now, but I have chosen to bite my tongue. And in biting my tongue, someone else is biting me in the ass. And I probably deserve that on some level.
I wish it would teach me not to gossip, but it probably won't. I will continue to be careful in what I say, however.
And I will pick my friends a little more carefully in the future.